They say that home is where the heart is, and while there is much truth in this, for me such a statement does not consider the reality of living abroad.
While driving recently, an old familiar song came on the radio that funnily every
German seems to know word for word. The irony of it is that it is an old
country song by John Denver, that actually has more meaning to me now that I am
on the opposite side of the pond than when I was on the other side... "country
roads, take me home, to the place I belong"...
Being somewhat annoyed with
myself for having teared up while singing along, it was very much a
confirmation that my heart ached for family and that familiar place that I once
called "home". Living life in a different country is very much a fine
balance between letting go of what once was, and embracing, blending, meshing,
and creating a home in the new.
So, I would assume that you have noticed that things have been very still
around here, but with good reason. This summer has been about seeing my family,
nestling in for a while in that old familiar place with no demands, and just
being me. One cannot imagine the kinds of challenges one faces functioning
daily in a language that you did not hear your own mother speaking to you from
But as I
soaked in the flavors of the past, I felt a still in my soul. The place of my
roots, the place where I feel connected to, and where I long for when I am
away. My missing home should not be misinterpreted as discontent, quite the contrary.
I have found my home here. Some time ago, a friend of mine said it best... "when
you live in foreign country for a long time, you find that there is always
something missing... no matter where you are."
is in TWO places, and I call them both home.